"The day you realize there's not enough time because you want to live forever"

Think of the biggest day of your life. Did you plan it or did this day find you?

The biggest day of my life. Honestly, I don’t think I could declare such a day. But I know that when I experienced it, I didn’t know it until I was surrounded by it. First kisses, laughs, dreams coming true, and heartbreaks... aren’t planned. They happen by chance. And whether it was fate or our own choices that led to that moment, they still caught us by surprise.

We were receiving cat calls when I realized everything would be okay as long as I had my sister. I was doing a lab on mitosis when I first fell in love. I was heartbroken when I found a diary and pen. I was playing basketball when my observable world fell apart. I was finding props for a school play when I received a kiss that turned my life upside down. I was cursing circumstances when I met my best friend. I was playing rock band when I first heard that a completely closed-off person loved me back. I was watching a ridiculous movie when I made a horrible decision. I was dancing with him when I discovered he meant more to me than I could possibly say.

And through a series of unexpected events, I've learned my biggest lessons, recovered from my biggest mistakes, and discovered my biggest loves. No, I can't tell you the biggest day of my life. It may have happened yesterday, it could still happen today, and it just might happen tomorrow.

Deus Ex Machina

Zombie no go think unless you tell am to think.

So THINK goddamnit! I go along on the prescribed path and try to achieve within the bounds that I am given. I'm just setting myself up to be average, forgotten, irrelevant. Listen to others, sure, but I'll make up my own mind. Won't follow advice, I'll decide what's right for me. There will always be a traveled path with least resistance and better general outcome, but I should really just wander around the forest however my heart leads me. At least I'll know that I chose, that I won't regret not doing what I wanted to do. Being myself, listening to myself, finding strength in myself: that's the secret to success, not attitude. I define my own success when I stop trying to impress or please others.

Attention! Quick march! Slow march! Left turn! Right turn! About turn! Double up! Salute! Open your hat! Stand at ease! Fall in! Fall out! Fall down! Get ready--

Apply it to every bloody aspect of your life, and you'll find that I'm not lying. You've been told about the norms for relationships and desires and ways of life. These are such lies! The truth is that you don't have to go out with anyone to legitimize how you feel (after all, it's not about how others feel, it's about how the persons involved feel.) The truth is that you don't have to go to college to live a full life (after all, monetary success doesn't automatically breed whole-ness.) The truth is that nothing that happens in life can be taboo (after all, it happens, it's real, and there is no line of propriety.) The truth is that the lines that were set up for you when you were a child no longer need to exist as an adult. After all, an adult has the right to choose and, more importantly, has the knowledge to back up a decision.

Halt!

Well, we've been well trained. Brainwashed from birth. But when will we open our eyes? What does it take for us to realize that we don't live, and have never lived, in any real confines?

Order!

They don't need to graduate to realize it. Today is just another day. They can do anything they want on any given day. They accept the consequences and feel contented in the fact that it was their desire. They shouldn't have to feel as if they're stuck by consequence or by expectation.

Dismiss!

But the point isn't to listen. The point is for her to figure it out herself. Duh.

*saxaphone solo*

This world is flawed, this world is broken

The times march on but the problems stay

Little demons of our own doing

Mischievous, morphing pranksters

Without a conscience, without a care

They’re here to stay

And I was presented unto the world

In all its imperfect, marred glory

I am one of the lucky

Touched but lightly by the flaws of the world

Content to rant and rave on other’s failure

And so, the problems are mine

I will save it. Not as a big damn hero

Just one person fulfilling a self appointed purpose

Because I can

And failing that, I will find a way to burn it all

Turn the world to ash, and watch the buildings fall

Complete the break, and build anew.

Hi. I'm Sohrab.