Growing Up

I found this day. Wow, has life changed. Right now I'm home with my almost 4-month-old son, Phoenix. He's the most beautiful part of my life, and the best thing that ever happened to me. I'm engaged to a wonderful man who has stuck by my side through every obstacle an unexpected pregnancy brings.

This blog is called The Playground. It's a place to still feel like an insecure kid who just wants to be liked, make friends, and have a good time. You can make mistakes, even really stupid ones, and learn from them. You can do what you want, when you want. It's a place where you don't have to take yourself so seriously.

But the thing is... I don't feel like I need that.

Growing up, taking on responsibility... It shows you who you really are. You don't focus on yourself, you don't focus on little things that bother you. You are constantly working towards a better future for your family. You don't feel like it's a choice to be where you are, you just HAVE to be there. But you love it. You love the way your family needs you, because you need them just as much. It becomes the place you want to be even when you feel like you could use a break. It's your support. Your everything. There is no wondering or questioning... There's just knowing. Living. Loving.

I'm excited to see what else comes my way once I graduate school and once Jordan and I are married. I'm excited to have a career and to have a second child. I'm excited to spend the rest of my life being happy with my family.

I don't need The Playground anymore.